long ass shift at work, but man, i’m glad I was able to put some winter in my nose afterwards. Only thing that makes me happy these days.
I love cocaina~
I hate liking people, because I imagine, if they ever gave me the chance, making them happy. I would love more than anything to be in a relationship with someone I can sing to. Someone who makes me want to sing out to the world, how truly and deeply happy they make me feel.
I keep thinking back to the Fourth and it makes me so queasy.
Because I really did like this guy, and I keep thinking about that night.
We were drunk, and cuddling, and when we fell asleep, I remember waking up and he’d simultaneously wake up too, and kiss my forehead, and the whole night he kept his arms around me. And I really thought, for once, it was going to work out in my favor.
And then a week later, he was in a relationship with a different girl.
And I’m so hung up on him and I don’t know why.
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I swear, the more effort I put into getting to know different beings, the more pessimistic and dispirited I get. It’s crazy how your life can be going so fucking great, and plummet all in just a couple days. I’m brainsick.4 months ago with 3 notes